Hello Everybody...
Well, I realized I haven't ever
shared any real personal experiences with you guys. I have shared ways how me
and my companion have been able to help others spiritually, but not really ever
about myself and the spirit helping me spiritually.. so her it goes!
For the last month I have been
getting serious feelings.... about extending. I knew already when I started my
mission that I would want to extend, I would want to serve the Lord forever...
and wear a name tag while doing it :) Well, about a month ago these feeling were
becoming stronger. The more the branch and zone would bring up me dying and
going home soon, the more I refused. The more I hated it. The more worried it
made me feel as well. Was I really ready to go home? Go back to Babylon? Had I
really become all that the Father wanted me to be? Have I done all that I could
have done with the time He has given me? I was mixed... was it my own fear of
going home or the spirit telling me I had more to do. Throughout the 4 weeks I
prayed about it constantly, I fasted, seeked the guidance of the prophets, and
then emails President Maurer the week of zone interviews telling him how I had
been feeling the past 4 weeks. I would get mino impressions of what I should be
doing. You should go home.. but then something would happen and I would say no!
I need to stay. I mean you can take 2 days of getting punted either way! Hahah,
so on the day of interviews I knew.. I would finally get my answer! I would
know what to do. This was also our first time meeting our new President and his
wife, but I knew without a doubt, he would give me the answer I needed! And
sure enough I did. It started off with the APs training involving the talk by
Elder Holland The Miracle of a Mission. (I invite you all to read it!) They
gave us such great advice on how to truly become and do all we are meant to do
(partially an answer). Then as they were closing... Elder Santiago from Hawaii
who has been such a great friend since I first got here said something along
the lines of this: "Near the end of your mission, in your last 2 cycles,
you are allowed an extension. No one really knows this. You are allowed to
extend up to 30days. Whether to see someone get baptized or you truly know you
have work still to do. Think about this, you can extend. And maybe you can extend
again, and again, and again, and again, We would ALL love that, we really
would. To be a missionary for forever and not have to go back. But, eventually,
you will need to go back.. Your parents will run out of money. Your niece and
nephews you haven't met will miss you, Sooner or later you will have to stop.
you will have to go home. Your time is up. If you have done all that you can to
give your all to the Lord, in the time HE has given you, just go home. GO.
HOME. Your time is up." BOOM! Answer! And not even the way I expected it,
but I am so much grateful it did come this way! In my interview later with
President it was even more reassured.. it is time to go home. As much as it
still hurts, I know that I am needed to stop at some point. I can't wear a tag
forever(but I can share the gospel forever! holler!) So I am gonna give it my
all this last bi tI got! If I pass out at the airport.. hahah sorry :)
OK I only got a little bit of time to
share one last story... His name is Tatay Bernardo! He is the best thing ever!
He is a less active member that we have been teaching for 4 weeks and has
progressed amazingly! I talked about him in an email like a month ago, Tatay
Benny. Well in this last lesson with him.. the whole time he just bore
testimony to us. The power and will of God for us to find him and bring him
back. He admitted he was shy, that was the only reason he didn't go back. He
was shy. He just needed someone to reach out to him. We both could not have
felt any better after that lesson with him. This Sunday he would have been
officially a returned member, but due to the fact we has a baguio (typhoon) he
didn't make it to church. A lot of people didn't But, we still love him and
know he will progress!
Sorry the weekly update is shorter
rather than the personal story but I hope it helps y'all in some way! LOVE
YOUS!
Sister Bray....... FOREVER
Here is a pic of Tatay Bernardo and
our Zone with the new Mission President Maurer and his wife! They have the
greatest accents!